Coming "Out" Psychic - Confessions of a Tarot Reader

Most people know me as a Tarot Reader, or
rather an "Intuitive" Tarot Reader.
A self imposed title I used when I began My career
as a professional reader. 
I chose to call myself  a "Tarot Reader" because I
believed it to be more accepted by mainstream society.
I also didn't fully understand the difference between who
I really am & what I do.

When I was young, somewhere between 10 -11 years old,
It became apparent I had an ability to "know" things.
The exact time We knew of this I will always remember.
It was late in the evening, probably around 10PM and
I should have been fast asleep. I remember running in to
My Mom & telling Her, "Aunt Harriet died".  I was pretty
upset & insistent.  Shortly afterwards the phone did ring
with the terrible news.  My Aunt had passed from a sudden
heart attack.

As I got older, this knowing continued.
I was told My Dad had the same ability although
He never embraced it. 
It was the norm for me, I never questioned or gave it
much thought.
At some point I began giving readings or making "predictions"
for family & friends.
"Predictions" seem to be a dirty word - right along with
"Fortune Teller".  Btw, I am not a "Fortune Teller".
I moved along in My chosen career path -
NOT a reader. 
I did do readings on the side.  It was fun, extra income &
I began to work with Tarot.

Eventually, circumstances or perhaps Fate stepped in
Changing My path.  I am forever grateful to Spirit and
To those friends who manifested this change.
Armed with a Tarot Deck, the path as a professional reader began.
Truth was, I am a Psychic.  I can read with nothing at all.
I simply Hear or See the message.
Some of those messages have been posted right here on this blog.
Those messages are called "predictions" by some.
To me, they are simply messages.  Messages from Spirit.
Problem was, "Psychics" get a bad rap. The ones who didn't -
Well, I couldn't see putting Myself in their category. I didn't think
I had the abilities they did.
I thought Tarot was safer, more accepted.
In reality, it's not.
I also thought I fit in better.
Labels.  Why do we need them?

As I explored the Tarot community,
I realized, it's NOT who I am.
I love Tarot.  I've met some incredibly talented people.
I love the artistry of the decks.
That artistry is a tool that helps me do what I do best.
I AM a Psychic.
I do see energies that have not yet come to pass.
I have an excellent track record.
I will not be ashamed of those "predictive" energies,
That some like to make fun of or pooh pooh.
I will support Tarot.  I will use tarot decks.
But I will come out of the self imposed closet.
I am who I am because of Spirit.
I owe it to Spirit to acknowledge.
I AM a Psychic and I am proud.
Blessings!

Spiritual Practioners Dream Differently

Dreams.
We all have them.  Some are manifestations of our subconscious, Some are just a replay
of the days events.
Freud interpreted our dreams.
Jung interpreted them.
We can find dozens of books on the subject.
It's fun.  It's interesting.
We may find insight in a situation.  
We may find answers.
But Spiritual Dreams - That's a bit different.
Spiritual Practitioners Dream differently.

Last night after taking a Spiritual Bath,
I headed to bed.  I woke up this morning
EXHAUSTED!
Now that doesn't always happen, or I wouldn't
take too many of these...
I did wake up with a message or two.
Which is generally how these dreams work.
These messages sometimes
need a bit of interpretation,
like any other dream but
the interpretation is different.
You won't find it in any book or site.


An example of this type of dream:
I was going in & out of different rooms.
Each time I entered I would blow some dust
& the door would open.
Now a dream interpretation may say I'm
wishing for an opportunity.  The interpretation
could go deeper.
However, as a Spiritual Practitioner -
I know exactly what Spirit was telling me!
Clean Your house!  The dust, that was
Cascarilla!

A while back I had posted a dream.
I asked some of My Spiritual Sisters what
they thought.  Someone answered,
unfamiliar with the particular spiritual practice.
She gave a long thought out description as to
the psychological interpretation dream.

That doesn't apply with Spirit.

Spiritual Practitioners dream differently.
We get advice,
We receive news of future events,
We're asked for offerings,
We're reminded of  our duties,
Our responsibilities to Spirit.
We're asked to serve.
Our dreams are more than "Dreams"
They are Blessings bestowed.
Yes, We have ordinary dreams but
Spiritual Practitioners do dream differently!
Blessings.

A Message Received 6/7/13

Arise She said
Those who stand before Me
In the time of Great Judgement
Whose sins
Are cast heavily
Against this Earth

For I Am the One
The Weigher
Of Man's hearts
For I Am the One
Who giveith
And I Am the One
Who can take away

I Am the One
Who makes towers crumble
And creates
Great pillars to the sky

And One shall come
Across many lands
And (She) will show the people
The way to righteousness
To heal
The sick The poor
And the time of judgement shall arise

I Am the bringer of happiness
Of great joy
To those whose hearts are truth
And Thy words
Shall sting
Like great arrows

For why My children
Can You not bear  to know Thy truth? 
My name is MAAT

5 of Stones - Medicine Woman Tarot

Woke up this morning, headed downstairs for a glass of juice -
I'm one of the few who doesn't drink coffee.
Sitting there, I was thinking about the mornings meditation.
Spirit was prodding me to give a message, only I wasn't quite sure
what. 

That little voice in My head said to me, "Go pull a card".
I felt drawn to The Medicine Woman Tarot. 
Not a deck I generally use, but when you feel the pull
you follow your instinct -
Unless of course it wouldn't be a good thing to do!

Quick shuffle & pull 1 card.
Five of  Stones. 
Sharing!  Looking at this card & You feel GOOD.
It's a happy card.  Giving to others.  Generosity. 

Now 5 of Stones is the equivalent of 5 of Pentacles.
Have you seen that card? 
Traditionally NOT a happy card.

The 5's in general are not the "happy" moments you find in a Tarot Deck.
Fives are about change.  They represent loss.  Challenges.
It's an "Ut Oh"card. 
Just look at a persons face when they get this card in a reading.
But change isn't necessarily bad. 
Which is the point Spirit wanted to make. 
It's all in the perception of things.

The Five of Pentacles represents the losses &
challenges on the material plane.
It can also represent Spiritual losses. 
So why the feel good energy of the 5 of stones?
SHARING.
Giving what little one can to others in need.
It's the glass being half full.
I have enough to provide what I need.
I can share.
In ancient times, communities would gather together.
Farmers would bring from their harvest,
Fisherman from their catch...
It would be given to the poor, the sick, the needy.
Those that needed welcomed these offerings.
They were not made to feel ashamed.

And that is the message of the 5 of stones.
Change the way We look at material things.
Be thankful. Be positive. 
SHARE
And don't ever be ashamed to accept
help if you need it.

Blessings!

I See The Great Mother

Today a client asked me, "Where do your messages come from?"
"Do they come from Angels?"
Although I can't prove, and let's face it - Can anyone say without
a doubt what Spirit is exactly? I believe the messages come from
The Goddess.
Maybe I should say I KNOW. 
That's My personal truth.  We all have our own truths.
 
How did I come by My truth?
I saw Her...
About now You may be thinking "She needs a tin
foil hat".. That's OK.


Quite a number of years ago, She came to me.
I was wide awake.  There were no substances involved -
Really there were none...
It was around midnight.
I was sitting by My altar doing candle work & meditating.
I accidentally stepped on My cat Rocky's tail...
He lashed out & bit me. 
Rocky was temperamental..
I could see the 2 holes from the bite marks &
Of course, blood.
It was an "Oh crap" moment.
Not that the bites were deep, but I tend to have a reaction...
The last time I had a cat bite I spent the evening in the ER -
on IV antibiotics.. 
I wasn't in a position to run to the hospital.
Dad was in bed sleeping.
I couldn't leave him alone, besides I had no car -
Who would bring me?
I got up to go clean it up, when I saw Her.
She was beautiful. 
It was strange but I wasn't at all afraid.
I felt peace. I felt great beauty.
She had pale skin. Red lips.
A long hooded cape.
I heard the name, "HECATE"
I was in awe. I can not put into words what I felt.
She said everything would be fine.
Then She was gone.

I looked down at My hand & there was no wound.
No holes, no bite, not a thing.
I knew SHE was there.
Why am I telling this crazy story?
Because I need to.
I need to honor HER.

We all see Spirit in different ways.
Perhaps, You see Angels, or Mary.
My truth?
Hecate came to me.
She's visited me again. The visits have always come
when She was needed and never called to.
I would be remiss not to honor Her.
You may think I need a Tin Foil Hat.
That's okay.
I know differently.
I know The Great Mother & I am proud to say so.

Vernal Equinox - Festival of Isis

Isis
Divine Mother
Queen of Magick
She Who holds the power of Word
Isis
She who breathed life back into
Her beloved Osiris
Isis
Mother of Horus
Mother of All

We Honor You
We celebrate the ancient trinity
Isis, Osiris, Horus
The Return of Life

Cultural divide in the pagan community

Some time ago I heard an enchanting story -
"Grandmother Drum".
The storyteller was a delightful woman,
A wise older woman who could enthrall you with Her tales.

Grandmother Drum, was this huge drum filled with crystals
for their healing properties.
It was supposedly created by a Native American Women with the
assistance of the Inuit people's.
Now anyone that knows me personally, knows I am obsessed
with crystals...
So hearing this, I had to learn more!
I also had to own one of the "Baby Drums".

So I googled.
What I found was a not so enchanting story.
It was a great source of controversy.
The Women who created the drum was not Native American
as She claimed.
The money She collected for "charities" has been in question.
There are other issues.
For instance, It is illegal to possess Eagle Feathers unless you are
Native American.
Native Americans have asked the government to step in.
I could go into more details but I'm sure My point has been made.

I no longer was enchanted with the story of Grandmother drum.
Fast forward to a few short weeks ago.
I receive an invitation to an event celebrating
The story of Grandmother Drum.
I politely responded saying kind things about the facilitator BUT
mentioning simply it is a controversial issue.

OH MY!!!
What did I do?
I received quite a few nasty emails.
People "unfriended" me (lol)
One Woman wrote to me saying,
"Because I am a white Woman am I not to own this item
or participate in a belief system other then My own?"
And that is the polite translation...

Does being a member of the pagan community
Give us the right to disregard other cultures?
Does being a pagan mean I can co opt any tradition I like
and then get all pissy because someone from that culture
addresses it?
Being a pagan may mean We are free from the Dogma of other
Religions & Spiritual Belief systems;
But it doesn't give us the right to disrespect other peoples.

We will never heal Ourselves, or this Earth unless we can heal
& understand the differences between us.
Stomping Our feet & saying, I'm entitled to do as I please,
Without regard to others; is not very healing nor is it enlightened.
 
It's time We celebrate All belief systems.
All cultures.
It's also time We honor them in a respectful manner.

Namste'
The Divine in Me, honors the divine in You